I only wish I could say that I’ve only been crying for these 5days. So many tears leading up to this.
Rejection hurts. Being rejected with an I don’t know is worse. Either you love someone enough to stay or you don’t. To find it’s so easy for someone to walk away so easily and you want to hate thembut can’t is fucking horrible. I still want to love him. Selfish foolish heart. I think this heart belongs to him cut it out and take it I have no use of it. “XxMarkusxX” it’s funny how I’ve had this simple bit of information and didn’t know until it was to late. Searching for someone you know online- pointless and can be hard if they use no social sites by claim. Searching the love of your life with the one nickname they use-priceless and hurtful. Finding them on sexual sites the day after they tear out your heart out is fucked up and to twist the knife is finding they’ve been using it during the relationship. I could really kill over and die. Still loving and needing and missing fuck the unbearable desire to call I’m torn. See I’m wrong either way if I get him back, shut my mouth and submissively take it I’ll be living a foolish life. If I speak regardless of having him or not I’ll be a bitch for finding the truth. And idiotically I still want it all back. So many “why’s” floating in my head??????????????
Thank you! 😜
Hopped in the car and just started going and welp ended up in Manhattan NY and found this awesome guy. I told him his mask is from my favorite movie and I thought that was hot in return he said I was hot…. Think this is my new boyfriend sorry Markus 👅💋💞. My cousin dropped that bag out of her tits so we couldn’t help him smoke he asked for my food instead
|Thornal:||You inspire me. For someone who has lived threw so much and herself has not become that very darkness is just...|
|Asia:||This thing you do with yourself, I love it. You are always flowers and rainbows still so calm and mellow.|
|Me:||(in my head) if you only knew how much of that darkness still lives in me. I have been fighting this battle and to the eye I'm winning but if anyone who knew me could feel what I feel they'd know I'm slowly losing. No one but Markus knows the truth and not even he knows the extent|
Fucking mastermind! Native Sun kills shit dope ass dj in the district. Rough feed amazing ass mixes though jah bless me bredren